July 17th 2023
Being persistent, driven, and motivated may seem like really great traits. But in a world where your fate is to be a “silent voice,” there is no point in trying to be driven or motivated. All it has ever caused me is anxiety, stress, and 2 out of 1000 wins. I’m not prepared to keep being persistent over things that will never work, it’s sick, and no one with a naturally driven, self-motivated, and persistent personality should ever have to deal with that.
Sometimes, we need to learn when to stop. So I’m going to start quitting at things. I was attempting to work on consistency, but it requires a little more than self-motivation.
Working hard for no one is I what I’m doing. If I just start quitting at things, at least I’ll finally learn some patience. Since, you should never expect anything anyways. I hope this is the wrong path so that faith will learn. I’m not stressing over NOTHING any longer. I never just quit, that was my persistence, but I’ll start now.
Hours later update: This is a yod experience. Definitely a neurotic aspect… #research
Just a bit later, a while after searching and doing divination, I’m finding out that there is indeed a yod I’m experiencing currently…tears in my eyes.
Wow!
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