(Just thought you should know, I was diagnosed with ADHD since 3, don’t ask me how, idk. I was adopted and already diagnosed by then, aka 3)
I’m sure I have written about it before but it’s not a title post, so you’d have to do some digging.
I’ve mentioned how I constantly need something to be happening, unless I am in COMPLETE solitude and enjoying myself. I love being alone and discovering so much about myself, by researching my need for knowing my future, the otherworldly and how to get there. Receiving insights, daydreaming, writing, and being a creative. Reading and watching Japanese and Korean works. (Most exciting shows and readings in my opinion). Music and being in my own world. But I’m not always able to be alone. And I don’t want to isolate myself (I’m young and need to experience life properly), though once I get my name out there, I can do that all I want.
Otherwise, I am bored, I’m not always feeling music, or able to research something new about myself, I don’t always need divination, or have current shows or books to read, nor do I always have the motivation to write. And that’s when I turn to watching videos, but when those bore me…At one point, I was watching two videos at once, because I was so bored of watching the one and wanted to watch the other genre as well. Either horror or a successful career mostly. And that’s very not normal.
As I have mentioned before, I recently made it to the news, but that was shortlived excitement for me. I’m still not where I want to be. My feeling of uselessness makes me want to sleep forever, because it’s too much to deal with. I want someone to do a study on me, and give me pages of an accurate reading. And I’ve also said that I feel prone to psychosis, I see myself in a feeling way, going crazy. If I wasn’t as functional as I am, knowing I should be keeping it together, I would’ve been pretty sick. But I am a high functioning individual. And I don’t have anxiety…no
Research is also a hobbyhorse of mine, I may research the same topics, but each time no matter how deep of a wormhole I fall into, I am always finding something new. I consider it a talent lol. That may be why I consider ROOT CAUSE ANALYSIS to be a skill of mine.
I often say, and I’m not sure if I have written about it, that if a normal person had my mind they wouldn’t be able to stand it.
Random Btw, but I don’t think how I look is how I actually look, I never see myself till I look in the mirror. That’s the only way I can explain that part.
RESEARCH while WRITING: INTELLECTUAL OE, HIGH IQ,
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