October 2nd, 2022
Introverted Intuition
Low latent Inhibiton
Vivid Imagination – Me – A Maladaptive Daydreamer
Visionary
Highly Creative
Curiosity
Introspection
ADHD
I wasn’t aware of all the connections and research before I started calling my sudden urge to write due to a sudden flood of information, intuitive insights.
Is it the creativity, the imagination? The motivation/inspiration, in which we can provide for ourselves? I’ve been called genius, smart and prodigy all because I thought differently. I was able to make people see me a certain way that was beneficial to me, however it was never through acting fake. It was due to adopting characteristics I adored. It all started in middle school and with a specific person. Though obviously at the time I wasn’t aware that I was adopting characteristics to utilize as my own. People didn’t respect me in middle school, and so to see me change and set boundaries for example, in the same way that I adored seeing someone else do, I wouldn’t be taken seriously. Therefore, I changed to a different school for high school so I could grow and build a better reputation for myself. I was respected, seen as a overachiever, people would come to me, and I was taken seriously. I was liked. However, before the start of sophomore year I wasn’t aware of any of the things I know now. Like I say, it all started when I was 15 and when I realized for the first time that I was a Maladaptive Daydreamer. I’m going to be 17 tomorrow btw, ahhhh.
I called myself a visionary because of my ability to see and plan for the future. I wrote about this months ago. “The Ability to Plan For the Future, Not Always A Good Thing?” INFJs or those with a dominant Introverted Intuition are said to be able to foresee future possibilities and accurately. And I wrote about this before I researched deeper into whatever I was experiencing.
I’m obsessed with knowing the future. And my probing and curious personality finds any which way to confirm my visions and thoughts. Those which sometimes occur through Maladaptive Daydreaming, receiving Intuitive Insights or hyper focused research.
Tarot Cards, Pendulums, Birth Charts, Intentions, Candles and my recent way, IChing. All these rituals used to validate the unknown. Even though I’m always hearing similar things, why is it still that I need so much confirmation? I need to see and directly communicate with the otherworldly things I connect with.
Carl Jung is an individual I take alot of interested in. I always thought INTJs were so cool and that they were truly similar to us INFJs. It turns out that Carl Jung didn’t really seperate the two and instead focused on the Introverted Intution aspect that they shared.
I love philosophy, but I feel if I major in it in college, it may be ruined for me. I don’t like conventional schooling and teachers don’t always ‘understand’ more than there students. I would like a mentor. Someone spiritual and experienced in being different. It’s not about being smart or anything by the way. It’s about being different indeed. Some people would expect great things out of me, but academically I’m a very average student. Yet it’s in that way that people expect more from me. Sure I’m special and may seem like something else, but in a way that’s esoteric.
This urge to write, this flood of information and all these eccentric experiences. Yet I don’t feel special only different.
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