August 23rd 2022
I was trying to understand, how and why people would or wouldn’t approach me a certain way. The same way they would do others, and only because it’s recent and I’m not used to the behaviour. For me it’s almost hesitant. It’s as if they were reciprocating how I felt about them. Through actions, expressions, etc. However, I never display a certain attitude towards them to make them act a certain way, in this case somewhat standoffish. And as I stated before, this behaviour is entirely recent, which is why I am even bothering writing this at the moment. Everything in my life points to me being an empath. However, it’s the only thing I don’t entirely resonate with. Though, I do see through people well.
As I was pondering, I made these former connections. Is it reverse empathy? Am I a reverse empath?
As for people seemingly reciprocating how I merely FELT about them, it only happens with people I would rather not be around. And then it hurts me, kinda. I dont care as of now however. But to someone not showing a standoffish attitude towards you, especially if you just met them, to be distant and act as though I don’t like you is not a nice feeling. It made me think something was wrong with me for a while. I wondered how others viewed me. “How do people see me?” I was genuinely baffled. I was confused.
And this is all before I considered the possibly of being a reverse empath of course.
Obviously, as I’m realizing this more and more as I write, I add feelings that I can now put a finger on. At the time, I just felt unimportant honestly. I thought, “Am I that insignifcant?” But again this only happened around people I would rather not be around. And sometimes after a complete first impression.
However, if I liked you at first, but then later on as I got to know you, decided we wouldn’t click, then they wouldn’t act distant with me. Probably because that barrier of stranger and first impressions are already kinda broken. Though as time went on and I think further back, I must’ve acted a certain way that would eventually make them get the hint and become distant. Though I’m fine with the becoming distant part, the thing is I don’t act a certain way. I’m not like that and if I don’t really like a person I would just….literally treat them like I treat everyone else.
But bear in mind, I still don’t like them, so of course I would keep my own distance so as to not let a bond get any tighter, but it’s simply not obvious.
Its my own feelings towards them, that they reciprocate..
Conclusion from Research: Projective Empath?
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